The Golden Glow

We are ever on this quest to fulfill this deep, fathomless, bottomless hunger, in our souls. In my search, I discovered that I was searching for myself. What I mean is, I was searching for my purpose in life. On the road to discovering myself, who I am and why I exist, I realized that the more I pulled away from all the noise and outside influence, and the closer I got to the living God, the closer I got to purpose. I needed the courage to look and tap within me. I needed courage to have faith in Him. When that happened, the happier, the stronger, the more confident, secure and peaceful I became. I realized that I have become wiser, steadier, bolder and more courageous. I smile, talk and laugh more. I am less inhibited, less fearful and not filled with anxiety.

The Replay

Over, and over and over again. There it goes. The unpleasantness of that memory, causing you to wilt and wither. The thing that turned you into what and who you are today.

Faithful Instinct

There is no science, medicine or philosophy that is wiser or greater or better than your instinct. Your instinct knows you; your depth, your capacity and your power to will to yourself to live a fulfilling life.

Escapism

What place do you escape into?  What habits do you hide behind? What brought on the escapist mindset? What pain? What agony? What abuse? What violation? What tragedy? what mistake? what guilt? What shame? What self-disgust? Which of these brought this mindset on you? Which of them made you create and develop self-destructive vices?

What Really is the Matter?

What happened to you? Who hurt you? What is the healing you need? Why are you pulling yourself down, and bringing everyone you meet, down with you? What is the satisfaction you gain from punishing yourself and others, with your pain?