Escapism

What place do you escape into?  What habits do you hide behind? What brought on the escapist mindset? What pain? What agony? What abuse? What violation? What tragedy? what mistake? what guilt? What shame? What self-disgust? Which of these brought this mindset on you? Which of them made you create and develop self-destructive vices?

What Really is the Matter?

What happened to you? Who hurt you? What is the healing you need? Why are you pulling yourself down, and bringing everyone you meet, down with you? What is the satisfaction you gain from punishing yourself and others, with your pain?